I’m Back From My Fear Trip!
You’re probably wondering what’s a “fear trip”?
A fear trip is one of those trips that mires you in inertia, keeps you from moving forward and creates an atmosphere of doubt and deception. It’s like being stuck in your own personal time warp and you have the key but can’t open the lock.
A funny thing about fear – you can go along thinking you’ve conquered it and bam! It rears its ugly head when you least expect it.
I thought I was long over the fear of sharing my writing or speaking in a public forum.
So, what happened?
I won’t bore you with all the details but family, illnesses, “anything that gets-in-the-way-of-writing mishaps” and other related incidents kept me off course for months.
In reality, after such a long absence, fear stealthy moved in while I was busy doing other things.
Have you ever let that happen to you?
I’ve overcome other fears before. I put my first blog post out there in 2009, wrote numerous posts since then, published a book, and spoken to many groups. So, why have I allowed fear to keep me from writing for so long?
The truth is, the longer I stayed away, the wider the opening for fear to sneak in and give me room to create a story that I had no evidence to support.
My story was that I would write and no one would be there to read what I wrote and that you would have moved on to read someone else’s blog. That was my story and I stuck to it!
How could I possibly know that? Can I peek over your shoulder and see what’s on your computer screen?
Remember, FEAR is “False Expectations Appearing Real” and like most fears – mine were rooted in false expectations without any proof to support my story.
Once I got brutally honest about the real reason I neglected my blog for so long, I was able to dismiss the false “story” I created.
Fear can make a person see something that is not there, or hear something that is not said – Iyanla Vanzant
Does writing this post mean I’ve overcome the fear that no one will read my blog posts?
I don’t know…
I do know that one of the ways to overcome fear is to do the thing you fear.
I also know that, at this moment, I’m not fearful. I am taking a risk that you haven’t abandoned me and will let me know you read this by leaving a comment.
Just say hello, I’m still here.
Until next time …(yes, there will be a next time).